preciousburden

1st promise ever made to myself

不懂为什么月份也会变敏感词

So basically it's like this:

Ever since primary school, or even kindergarten..(sigh..), i've been having crushes on boys...

the guy that bit sausages in a reeally creepy way.. the apple of the teacher guy, who had such a pale skin color.. the one whose hair used to fluff up, who was really cute after playing football, well at least i thought so then, and with whom i messed things up later.. the artist, really handsome and popular guy, whom i was most crazy about.. the hypocrite that let me know the feeling of being hurt the first time.. and finally this Mr. As-If-Almost-Right, and this long, mind&heart burning and consuming, but not, for fairness' sake, uneducative relationship. 

Plus all those guys who said they liked me.

And NOW i'm really fed up with this. If these "experiences" serve as any "experience", then most of them would point me to the conclusion that i suck at relationships. And it's time to stop, or pause, and really think things over. I mean i'm finally left alone with myself and 've finally got the chance, or, p-r-i-v-i-l-e-g-e to live with myself, and nobody else. It seems i never did that before. No i never did. There were always some other residences in me. And finally, finally.

So i'll see where this is gonna lead me. Already kind of excited now.  

除非你是我，才可与我常在吧。