preciousburden

has a life of its own.

嗯哼

一一一

As long as we can make sure that no one dwells on the past too long to be able to move on, every, literally every problem's solved huh? I'm mad because it just doesn't seem right to me but i just don't know how to disprove it. Maybe your best trait is also the one that keeps you away from me. Should I like you or hate you for that? Should I ever argue with you about it? Should I ever ask you more questions? I won't anyway. Why bother it when part of me has become you already. C'mon, you're not shooting a movie or anything.

我愿意放弃我的牛奶和冰淇淋。

1st promise ever made to myself

不懂为什么月份也会变敏感词

So basically it's like this:

Ever since primary school, or even kindergarten..(sigh..), i've been having crushes on boys...

the guy that bit sausages in a reeally creepy way.. the apple of the teacher guy, who had such a pale skin color.. the one whose hair used to fluff up, who was really cute after playing football, well at least i thought so then, and with whom i messed things up later.. the artist, really handsome and popular guy, whom i was most crazy about.. the hypocrite that let me know the feeling of being hurt the first time.. and finally this Mr. As-If-Almost-Right, and this long, mind&heart burning and consuming, but not, for fairness' sake, uneducative relationship. 

Plus all those guys who said they liked me.

And NOW i'm really fed up with this. If these "experiences" serve as any "experience", then most of them would point me to the conclusion that i suck at relationships. And it's time to stop, or pause, and really think things over. I mean i'm finally left alone with myself and 've finally got the chance, or, p-r-i-v-i-l-e-g-e to live with myself, and nobody else. It seems i never did that before. No i never did. There were always some other residences in me. And finally, finally.

So i'll see where this is gonna lead me. Already kind of excited now.  

除非你是我，才可与我常在吧。

还掉借来的书 洗掉没洗的衣裳 倒掉填满的垃圾桶 挥霍掉一天最后一刻钟

离开没有反面 只有先后 

无份的台词 永远不说为妙 

if only i could have a year that doesn't belong to school or work or anything, a year that i can do whatever i want with it. that would be great. or maybe i should learn to stuff all those things into the average, normal days and have better time management. see that is the key. time management. guess i have to figure out how it works. and the idea of taking a year off?